Today was simple and to the point. Work 9 hours. Eat the food I brought with me to work, NOTHING more. I had 4 egg whites for breakfast along with a cup of fruit (sliced strawberries & red grapes), lunch was a minuscule helping of veggie stir fry. I also grabbed a granny smith apple […]
Life seems tasteless and blank at the moment. I am really low at the moment. I have no idea why. Well I do, but I don’t. I’m so tired of feeling this way. Deep shades of grey swirl and fill my mouth with hate, spewing words of filling waste. I spit bullets of anger at […]
It’s been almost a month since I last wrote a proper entry. What have I been up to you might ask?? Hmmm..let’s see. I started my new job. I was in Oregon for a 3 days. I have never been. I got to see the ocean for the second time. I am in love with […]
How to start a train of thought. I feel like I have been derailed this week. This week started off with me not being able to sleep. I started having awful lower back pain. I am used to back pain I get it almost every day after I work, but this has been different. I […]
“She comes on like a crippled plaything her spine is just a string…” -MM I did something stupid last night. I can’t remember if I wrote about it or not. I didn’t really drink that much but did manage to drink 4 cups of coffee in about an hour. At 10 pm. I don’t understand […]
Here I am. Pondering. Such a dangerous state of mind. Since Monday I have felt a touch better but lets face it, I am still down deep. My boyfriend calls it a “funk”. A funk I’ve gone through for over 15 years. I am off a strict diet, binging. I don’t know if it’s actually […]
Finding A Path... 