Hi. It’s been awhile. I didn’t forget about you I promise. I haven’t been to busy either. It’s been pure laziness that I haven’t wrote. I have been…living. I guess. Somewhat. Actually life has been getting pretty dim lately. Even with my new marriage. I have become addicted to two things. Exercise and alcohol. I […]
Many months ago did I last write. Not much has happened, so much has happened. Nothing of great importance I suppose. Other than my wedding is only 18 days away. I’m freaking out. I got to my lowest ever weight…not much lower then the last weight I wrote about. 114 pounds. I keep bouncing between […]
So, hey. Been awhile, again. What to update…I’ve been busy with wedding stuff and every day life I suppose. I thought I lost my laptop, it wasn’t turning on. I only have an ipad (an aging ipad that my parents gave to me) and it’s shared with the future husband so I can’t really look […]
I haven’t wrote in a long while. Nothing new really. I have been favoring my offline journal a lot lately. I record my weight each day, what I eat and how I am feeling in that journal. So I have been favoring that much more lately. I have lost a total of: 27 pounds. Not […]
So it is not my intentions to completely neglect you dear blog. I have had my hands full going to countless appointments and meetings for this weeding. It is T-minus 4 months away. Still so much to do. I have devoted the majority of my time to meal prep, gym time and meeting various people that […]
Many changes are around the horizon for this sad girl. These changes should make me happy, and they do…but it feels so superficial and the worry and anxiety are just right underneath the “happy”. You see, I’m moving in 10 days. I am almost doubling the size in square footage, I am gaining a larger […]
Life seems to be caving in on me. Each day presents itself with another mountainous task that I can’t climb. Another task I can’t complete. Another dream I can’t touch. I have decided to not try and grasp for the house I have dreamed of getting. My lease is up in less than two months […]
Today was my average Wednesday. I did get my big ass to the lake to do a 3 mile, 45 minute speed walk. It actually felt great. Although, when I look at other people just coasting…lazy walking (as I think of it as) I ask myself, “why do they even walk, why do they exercise…they […]
After a weekend that was actually bright, Monday’s just seem dim. A stretch of week that only brings loneliness. Why does life seem so bleak after having a slip of fun. I did, I had fun. I had Friday off, paid even and spent with the Fiance. I promised I would be happy and not […]
I start to wonder as my time draws closer to an end in my tiny little apartment, the first apartment I have owned all by myself. I start to wonder what I will miss about this small space I call my own. I will miss wondering around half naked, basking in the quiet. I will […]
Finding A Path... 