I hate those days that it feels like the air is suffocating me. I can’t get under the cloudy haze of poisonous air. Clawing at my skin, trying desperately to undo the days work. Today was so boring I almost fell asleep at my desk. I stared at a computer screen the entire day trying […]
Guide me through this nothing that’s everything I am everything I am nothing. The guilt keeps washing over me, making me feel worse and worse. I ate too much again. I eat to much always, even when I don’t eat enough. How is that even possible I ask myself? I never get a straight answer […]
I have been non-stop for the last two straight days. I don’t like being that busy. I know plenty of people that like to keep busy, every moment, every passing second having their hands busy with a project, work, stuff. Not me, I am the opposite. I cherish that time tucked away in bed, rain […]
As I sit here I feel the strain on my back, the pressure headache forming, the aches and pains growing steadily. I had a full day. These are the days I realize I am a real person. I had my interview this morning, so of course everything went wrong. While taking the boyfriend’s daughter to […]
It’s Friday. I am home after work. Alone. I had to work tonight, close the store and the Boyfriend got to go out with a bunch of our friends to this cool paint party thing. I wasn’t aware really that he was even going until last weekend. I was kind of bummed because that is […]
What can I say that I haven’t said before. The depression hasn’t lifted, nor do I think it will anytime soon. I am unhappy. I know how this song and dance goes. Loneliness is eating away at my exterior. I am feeling limp and defeated, which isn’t to much different then any other time before. […]
Finding A Path... 