So it’s been awhile since I last updated. I have been hard core working on my body since the last post. I mean that is all I have been thinking, doing, mentally and physically. It is sort of funny and makes me laugh (mostly to myself) but I have been so damn motivated, I have […]
The happiest part of my day is, obviously having the day off from the most horrible place on earth…ie my job. Then waking up early so I can have my coffee as I snuggle deep into the comfort of my warm sheets with the tv on and my kitty sneaking up to find a place […]
Here I am. Pondering. Such a dangerous state of mind. Since Monday I have felt a touch better but lets face it, I am still down deep. My boyfriend calls it a “funk”. A funk I’ve gone through for over 15 years. I am off a strict diet, binging. I don’t know if it’s actually […]
I think the last time I wrote was on the 4th. I got drunk. Swimming in my own disappointment. Life is such a drag. I have been declining rapidly in a sea of depression. This fog, this thick concrete pulling me under without the threat of death. Why live at all is what I question […]
The 4th of July. A day to spend with family and or friends. What am I doing? Sitting on the computer drinking beer. By myself. My own doing. I worked until 1:30, it was an awful day. Always reminding me why I do not want to work retail. A bunch of assholes coming in trying […]
Marilyn Manson plays tomorrow at my favorite venue. I am to broke to afford a ticket. I have been quoting, obsessing over his songs for over a decade. I was hooked after the negative theories of his songs back in high school. I love the hype and craziness that he creates. I wanted to feel […]
My anxiety got the best of me yesterday. I woke up early, happy to have the entire day off of work and the freedom that stretched out in front of me. I ate my apple, drank my coffee and threw on my work out gear. I officially lost 8 pounds since I stepped on that […]
Finding A Path... 